I'm feeling the need to start fresh. To discard the canes I've made in the past and start from scratch... (Yes, I know, Kelly, where I can send them!) Some canes are brittle, sadly, and some I'm just tired of. I feel like I need a clean creative slate with a clean work space and a new organizational method (okay, I just need organization.) The clutter everywhere is getting to me, even though I have given away or thrown away an incredible amount of stuff so far.
There are days, like today, where I am so tired and droopy - like the rainy weather outside - that I just want to curl up in a ball and have an excavation team clear out the debris.... both from my house and from my mind!
Caring for my parents, particularly my mom, has taken a physical and mental toll. Most days I am doing fine, handling things well; and I'm very glad that I can do this for them, after all they have given me. Occasionally I have a day where I wonder if I have the strength. Yesterday was one of those days, so today I'm exhausted.
I am sometimes stuck in the "I can't make anything extraordinary so why bother" routine. I see the beautiful, unique work of other artists and mine looks dull by comparison.
That's why I am considering the clear out and start over idea. Now I need a little energy...