My self esteem was low, and I think I felt if I could just find the right thing to do, then maybe I could feel good about myself.
Thus, the Ragger's program was right up my alley. The first rag, the blue rag (a blue kerchief), had only one requirement: memorize the "Ragger's Creed" which was the first verse of a hymn, I later found out.
I would be true, for there are those who trust me
I would be pure, for there are those who care
I would be strong, for there is much to suffer
I would be brave, for there is much to dare.
I would be a friend to all, the foe, the friendless
I would be giving and forget the gift
I would be humble for I know my weakness
I would look up and laugh, and love, and lift.
I went on, in the following years, to complete the program,finishing with the red rag. This level had us lie on the ground toward the end of the ceremony at Ragger's point, face down, with our arms outstretched, and say "Here I am, Lord, send me"
Later, at my husband's ordination to the ministry in the Episcopal Church, I was startled to find that the end of the service had the same procedure.
Today, I tend to live my life by the Ragger's Creed as much as possible. I'm not sure about my call to any kind of ministry, as I struggle through midlife and all the questions it calls to mind. But I believe that if we all could do our best to be true, pure, strong, brave, a friend to all, giving, humble, laugh, love and lift, the world would be a peaceful place.